haiz~
昨天,
哭了很多次~
今天在学校差点哭出来~
不知道为什么~
唉~
today,
very funny lo~
laugh until cant stop~
somebody fightin in the class,
then Mr. Yip,
came in,
then said many many道理2 us
then when he said in chinese,
he said渡（第四声）书，
haha~
then 我一直憋笑，
then he asked me "y u laugh"
then i cant said tat u 渡书is 读书
then i jus calm down,
when he went out,
we all laugh n laugh,
then the Mr ooi oso said like tat,
then i laugh until cant stop at all~
haha~
2day,
really is a funny day,
不过，
心情还是一样，
一点都没有变，
超伤心！
haiz~
不知道怎样办。
突然，
觉得我真的是很没有用。
从来就被人看好，
常被人看衰！
没有人知道真正的我，
没有人看到我的才华，
真的没有人看重我，
常轻视我~
常忽略我~
我哭，
也没有人会安慰~
haiz~

wat the hell~!!!
妈的~！！！！
现在超生气的~！！！
kns~
walao~!!!
谁能救救我？？？
==
真的很想哭~
为什么？
当初说好了，
为什么现在要反悔~
我要的是自由~！！
我要的是安静~！！
我要一个可以哭的地方~
当我哭的时候，
从来就没有人理我~
从来就没有人关心过我！
真的很累了~
为什么，
就没有一次能睡到不会醒？
我真的很想睡，
至少能让我睡到自然醒~
真的什么事都不想管了~
真的不想！
现在天黑~
我一点也不想开灯，
因为怕看见事实，
怕让人看到真相，
即使我怕黑，
我也不想开灯，
一个人躲在安静的角落，
不被人看见。
不被人看见事实和真相，
那就好了。
真的好累，
有谁能借肩膀给我？

haiz~
my results~
haiz~
为什么？？？
一切都是我太自以为是了~
我突然觉得
我什么都没有了~
朋友.....
有谁曾经发现我心里的痛
我心里的怨声
我心里的伤心
又有谁曾经关心过我~
累了~
什么事都不想做了~
突然觉得我很虚伪~
我很贱~！！！
那些分数得来的，
一点都不开心~
我恨我自己！！！
但是现在有什么用？！
已经没用了！
已经来不及了~！！！
一切都是我太高估自己了~！！
在别人心中，
根本就不是什么！！
在别眼里，
从来就没有我~
我不想再默默地在旁边，
等着别人回头看我！！
我的伯乐在那里？！
曾有看到我？！

2008/12/05 アカデミー室内オーケストラ演奏会

haha~
this is the 100 of 网志~
later oso home alone~
haiz~
something wrong wif my phone~
haiz~
T.T
my mum dun let me go 2 the shop n repair~
haiz~
haiz~
nowadays dun no y so衰~！
haiz~
my bm haiz~
96 only(倒反看）
==
T.T
haiz~
dun no how 2 tell my mum~
dun no my BI how is the result~
haiz~
my KH oso must be wan dan~
haiz~
so lonely at home~
dun no y nowadays felt lonely in the class again~
but tat thing let me hapi is~
i stil hv Hsiao Min , Rachel n D~
^^

KNS~!!!
jus now 妈妈挤我的pimple~
挤到我的脸麻痹~
bcoz of borow the pc from her~
haiz~
so pity, my face~
then when i sign in 2 MSN~
then his status is Away~
then i noe tat he is sleepin~
so dissapointed~
n so angry~
haiz~
2morow need 2 do the 酵素~
didnt bought the fruit yet~
haha~
i tink many ppl will not bring wan~
haiz~
later dun no can use pc until wat time~
my mum said the lastest is 10.30pm~
haiz~
c i can 拖多久~
haha~
learnt from my brother~
haha~
next month,
he is going 2 university liao~
haha~
soooooooooo hapi~
but after he left ,
dun no who can chat wif me~
haiz~
no1 play wif me~
n i tink tat time will be very very BOring~!!!
haiz~
jus now my parents tall about our future~
then asked me wat is my ambition~
n asked me where u wan 2 go 4 university~
oversea o stay here?
very confused~!!!
haiz~
tat time i think about him~
after 17,
if we still haven break up,
then it is a good time 4 us 2 date everyday,
stick 2gether everyday,
meet each other everyday~
but if i go oversea,
then we need 2 use msn 2 chat,
cant meet each other,
n sooo 麻烦~
haiz~
dun no where is my future,
wat is my future?
wat is my ambition?
haiz~
psychology o hotel management o dental o medicine o wat?
haiz~
very confused a~!!!!
haiz~
very tired~
no mood 2 do everything~
i jus wan 2 sleep~
but i wan 2 wait him until 10.30pm~
haiz~
dun no wat time he slept n wat time he will woke up~
haiz~

i tink it is the first time so early wake up n rite blog~
haha~
bcoz dun no later got time o chance 2 rite o not~
i think later my mm will get back the computer from me,
n dun say:i will not let u touch my pc again~
but every time she say like tis,
next time i oso can use the pc~
haha~
later i think i will go back 2 KT~
haiz~
BOring~!!!!
later,
dun no hu cn chat wif me~
later oso got hwrk 2 do~
haiz~
2morow need 2 back 2 skul again~
haiz~
so sienz~
dun no can get my result 4 all the subject o not~
haiz~
i wan 2 go out wif my frenz n D~
but my mum sure dun let go out wan~
haiz~
so sienz~
after exam ,
oso cant relax~
tat time were them encourage me 2 read the novel,
then now ,
when i readin the book,
then scold me~
haiz~
haiz~
BOring~!!!!!!!!
miss my frenz very very much~
miss D vry much 2~